Writing songs again

                <br> Wow that is hot that I can post a video to my little blogs on here. Nice feature. I just learned about that. Thanks, honey, lol. Anyway, I just stopped by to post a little note. I'm back to making new songs again. I had taken a little break to focus on performing but I don't have a whole bunch of performances scheduled so I figured what the hell. My break was only about a week, haha. We are constantly writing new material or making a new beat. Hubby just made another new beat last night. I'm getting pissed because I no longer have the time to keep up with them because of my work schedule. I wish I could just stay home and write to them all. I love them all. It's hard to pick and choose specific ones that I would like to be just mine because I love them all. He always has something fresh and interesting and different. His music is just about as different as my style of rap/ content/ lyrics. We are mad different than everyone else. Sometimes that worries me. I listen to other people's rap and no one sounds anything like us. The music is waaaaaay different and I'm waaaaaaaaaay different. That part of it makes me want to run away sometimes. I have nothing to compare myself to so I dont' know if people will laugh or clap. I never know if they will cheer or throw shoes at me. I don't think the customers at the bar last week liked my song "Horny Dog". Lol, they kinda just stared at me but I kept doing it and I didn't censor it just because I thought they might be offended. The song can be taken offensively because of the terminology that I use, but if you really listen to what I'm saying it's not offensive at all. In this song I was trying to express what I felt was going on in a "nasty" man's head when he sees a girl that he likes (want to have sex with). I didn't censor it because I don't believe the man's thoughts would be censored. I kept it just like it was originally written. I get scared every time I think of doing that particular song in front of people but I do it anyway. If they don't like it oh well I guess. I like the song. I like the chorus the best and the music. It wasn't my favorite beat in the beginning but it grew on me.      So I wrote a new song a few days ago. This one is very different. I used a new singing style and a new rap style. The lyrics were also very raw and personal. I took what I was feeling and thinking after an argument and put it into a song. I don't know what kind of reaction I will get. So far my son says it's great but I dunno. We'll see.     I stopped smoking today too!!! I wasn't exactly ready but my pockets and my distaste for Marlboros told me I was ready. I can't smoke Marlboros. I do not understand what my husband gets from those but they are so nasty! So I can't share his and I can't afford a pack (starving artist) so I figured what the hell. I'll just stop smoking. That'll solve the whole problem. I already know how this goes. I'm going to have 72 hours of wanting to kill all and cry myself to sleep. It is going to hurt like a mofo, but after the first three days it's fine. It will help with my vocals too. There are things that I know I would be able to do better if I was not smoking cigarettes. Notes that I can hold, tongue twisted subliminal encryptions that I could spit out, etc. So here we go. I'm getting cranky already, haha. TTYL.